♥ Daily Blog: Technically Single

Day by day I become weaker. As each day passes, I begin to starve myself even more; I don't seem to have an appetite for eating. There is no real food; instead, when I do eat, I feed myself junk food.

Even when I do want to eat, buying school food is just too expensive. Speaking of school food, clubs were selling cultural foods for international week. Usually, I would buy myself a real meal each year, but...looks like I cut short this year. lol oh yeah...my locker buddy used to offer to buy my food all the time...eh...

I realized that I'm technically single. Even when walking with him, he walks ahead of me, leaving me behind. This kind of reminds me of how my dad does to my mother. I guess I'm technically single, because I can't be dependent on anyone, even though I'm with him.

Seriously, I can get kidnap and he wouldn't even know about it, because apparently, he has put something else above me.
Even when I tripped and almost fell to land on my face, I had to rely on only myself.

I'm independent...but in relationships, I've learned to be ease.

I understand why he was rushing. But no matter what, that doesn't make any better to just run and leave me behind as that. Heck, maybe it would be better if he had just left instead of walking with me. I end up realizing that I'm only second important to his life.

He didn't seem too concern about what happened to me on Tuesday. Maybe it's true. Maybe he just want to be with me, but doesn't care about my well-being.
I guess...if I'm not to take this seriously, I guess he's just my high school boyfriend.
Thinking that way, I now truly regret about something.

~jen-jen