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"Maybe he is the perfect one, but there's no point if it's not mutual."

imaginaryfriend(9:26:20 PM): think about ur tuan
imaginaryfriend (9:26:26 PM): maybe hes not the perfect one
imaginaryfriend (9:26:32 PM): but at least
imaginaryfriend (9:26:35 PM): hes there 4 u
imaginaryfriend (9:26:38 PM): when u need him
Jen-Jen (9:26:49 PM): ..
imaginaryfriend (9:28:08 PM): u know wat i mean?
Jen-Jen (9:28:18 PM): i guess..
imaginaryfriend (9:28:39 PM): we dont usually get wat we want

"It's there, but it's untouchable. That's worse than anything else."

imaginaryfriend (9:38:06 PM): i am talking about him
imaginaryfriend (9:38:11 PM): hes
imaginaryfriend (9:38:14 PM): trying hard
imaginaryfriend (9:38:19 PM): to please u
imaginaryfriend (9:38:28 PM): i dont care if ur not plesae
imaginaryfriend (9:38:40 PM): or appreciate anythign he did 4 u
imaginaryfriend (9:39:00 PM): i am just seeing him trying to save the relationship as hard as he can
imaginaryfriend (9:39:12 PM): even though he sees that ur letting go
imaginaryfriend (9:39:18 PM): ok?
Jen-Jen (9:39:20 PM): he does see that?
imaginaryfriend (9:39:25 PM): yeah
imaginaryfriend (9:39:27 PM): duh
imaginaryfriend (9:39:33 PM): i think hes not that dense
Jen-Jen (9:39:33 PM): how do u know?
imaginaryfriend (9:39:36 PM): not to see
imaginaryfriend (9:39:44 PM): cuz wat u told him
imaginaryfriend (9:40:00 PM): was completely obvious
Jen-Jen (9:40:04 PM): ..
Jen-Jen (9:40:08 PM): but
imaginaryfriend (9:40:09 PM): that u doubt he being the one
imaginaryfriend (9:40:12 PM): he can TELL
imaginaryfriend (9:40:18 PM): so
imaginaryfriend (9:40:19 PM): now
imaginaryfriend (9:40:22 PM): its up to u
imaginaryfriend (9:40:29 PM): ok
Jen-Jen (9:40:33 PM): but u were right once...i already had problems in my life
imaginaryfriend (9:40:33 PM): thats wat i see ok?
Jen-Jen (9:40:37 PM): he's a bonus proble
Jen-Jen (9:40:38 PM): m
Jen-Jen (9:40:39 PM): -_-
imaginaryfriend (9:40:45 PM): see
imaginaryfriend (9:40:54 PM): thats now looking at u
Jen-Jen (9:41:22 PM): ...how about looking at both of he and me?
imaginaryfriend (9:43:50 PM): well we did look at urs many times didnt we?
imaginaryfriend (9:43:55 PM): i told u
imaginaryfriend (9:44:14 PM): ok
imaginaryfriend (9:44:18 PM): u chose to date him
imaginaryfriend (9:44:30 PM): that also means u accepted the troubles
imaginaryfriend (9:44:43 PM): and headaches relationship brings
Jen-Jen (9:44:46 PM): ...
Jen-Jen (9:44:49 PM): but
Jen-Jen (9:44:52 PM): good relationships
imaginaryfriend (9:44:53 PM): so now if u regret that
imaginaryfriend (9:44:55 PM): then
Jen-Jen (9:44:55 PM): don't have those
imaginaryfriend (9:45:01 PM): i dont know wat else to say
imaginaryfriend (9:45:42 PM): ok
imaginaryfriend (9:45:54 PM): so u see ur relationship is not good right?
imaginaryfriend (9:46:07 PM): let me ask u only one more thing
imaginaryfriend (9:46:25 PM): will u be better off after u break up with him?
Jen-Jen (9:46:30 PM): idk
Jen-Jen (9:46:32 PM): i dk that
Jen-Jen (9:46:34 PM): -_-
imaginaryfriend (9:46:34 PM): NO IDK
Jen-Jen (9:46:38 PM): i can't predict this
Jen-Jen(9:46:39 PM): ...
imaginaryfriend (9:46:42 PM): think about it
Jen-Jen (9:46:44 PM): i am
Jen-Jen (9:46:46 PM): sometimes
Jen-Jen (9:46:48 PM): i feel like
imaginaryfriend (9:46:50 PM): THIK HARDDDD
imaginaryfriend (9:47:30 PM): ur half half
imaginaryfriend (9:47:34 PM): ok
Jen-Jen (9:47:35 PM): ..exactly!
imaginaryfriend (9:47:39 PM): u must choose one side
Jen-Jen (9:47:43 PM): it's like
Jen-Jen (9:47:45 PM): i don't want him
Jen-Jen (9:47:49 PM): but i can't live without him
Jen-Jen (9:47:52 PM): bc
Jen-Jen (9:47:54 PM): part ofme
Jen-Jen (9:47:55 PM): wants him
Jen-Jen (9:47:58 PM): part of me doesn't
Jen-Jen (9:47:59 PM): -_-
imaginaryfriend (9:48:02 PM): ok
imaginaryfriend (9:48:28 PM): how long u can endure that " not wanting him though"?
Jen-Jen (9:48:47 PM): idk
imaginaryfriend (9:48:48 PM): which one is stronger?
the dislike or the like?
Jen-Jen (9:48:52 PM): ahh
Jen-Jen (9:48:53 PM): well see
Jen-Jen (9:48:55 PM): each week
Jen-Jen (9:48:59 PM): we have problems
Jen-Jen (9:49:08 PM): and he has so many flaws
imaginaryfriend (9:49:09 PM): ok
Jen-Jen (9:49:09 PM): i mean
Jen-Jen (9:49:10 PM): everyone
Jen-Jen (9:49:12 PM): has flaws
Jen-Jen (9:49:13 PM): but
Jen-Jen (9:49:17 PM): he has way too much
Jen-Jen (9:49:18 PM): ...
imaginaryfriend (9:49:22 PM): lol
imaginaryfriend (9:49:26 PM): ur funny
imaginaryfriend (9:49:28 PM): ok
imaginaryfriend (9:49:30 PM): if u say that
imaginaryfriend (9:49:33 PM): let me ask u
imaginaryfriend (9:49:43 PM): can u accept all those flaws?
imaginaryfriend (9:49:51 PM): like he can accept all urs?
Jen-Jen (9:49:54 PM): i'm just afraid
Jen-Jen (9:50:00 PM): that he may be like this now
Jen-Jen (9:50:02 PM): but later on
Jen-Jen (9:50:06 PM): it will be different
Jen-Jen (9:50:12 PM): bc in relatoinships
Jen-Jen (9:50:14 PM): most likely
Jen-Jen (9:50:16 PM): everything
Jen-Jen (9:50:20 PM): will seem compatible
Jen-Jen (9:50:23 PM): but later on
Jen-Jen (9:50:27 PM): differences will come
Jen-Jen (9:50:32 PM): if they exist
imaginaryfriend (9:50:57 PM): but u already saw that incompatibility
imaginaryfriend (9:50:59 PM): NOW
Jen-Jen (9:51:13 PM): ..
imaginaryfriend (9:51:15 PM): so why bother to see later on?
Jen-Jen(9:51:23 PM): true..
Jen-Jen (9:51:28 PM): ..
Jen-Jen (9:51:30 PM): he's weir
Jen-Jen (9:51:31 PM): d
imaginaryfriend (9:51:33 PM): ok
Jen-Jen (9:51:37 PM): he doesn't think we're incompatible
imaginaryfriend (9:51:40 PM): how about this
Jen-Jen (9:51:40 PM): he started crying
Jen-Jen (9:51:42 PM): when i said that
Jen-Jen (9:51:43 PM): -_-
Jen-Jen (9:51:47 PM): tbh
Jen-Jen (9:51:51 PM): i had to be there for him
Jen-Jen (9:51:54 PM): whenever he cried
Jen-Jen (9:51:57 PM): whenever i cried
Jen-Jen (9:51:59 PM): he cried
Jen-Jen(9:52:00 PM): ..
Jen-Jen (9:52:09 PM): and then i end up reassuring him
Jen-Jen (9:52:10 PM): -_-
imaginaryfriend (9:53:15 PM): well
imaginaryfriend (9:53:19 PM): ur bf is whiny
imaginaryfriend(9:53:29 PM): hes supposed to be the stronger one
imaginaryfriend (9:53:40 PM): girls dont like it when guys show weakness
Jen-Jen (9:53:55 PM): *sigh
Jen-Jen (9:53:57 PM): we i like it
Jen-Jen (9:53:59 PM): but like
Jen-Jen (9:54:02 PM): not like that way
Jen-Jen (9:54:03 PM): -_-
Jen-Jen (9:54:13 PM): ..
imaginaryfriend (9:54:34 PM): well
imaginaryfriend (9:54:43 PM): in MY opinio
imaginaryfriend (9:54:53 PM): U TAKE IT TOO SERIOUSLY
imaginaryfriend (9:55:00 PM): SO NEGATIVE TOO
imaginaryfriend (9:55:07 PM): ITS ALSO CUZ OF U
Jen-Jen (9:55:08 PM): ..
Jen-Jen (9:55:12 PM): me?
Jen-Jen (9:55:14 PM): what did i do?
imaginaryfriend (9:55:15 PM): YEAH
imaginaryfriend (9:55:21 PM): U ALSO THE PROBLEM ON UR OWN
Jen-Jen (9:55:26 PM): i know
Jen-Jen(9:55:27 PM): but
Jen-Jen (9:55:29 PM): what?
imaginaryfriend (9:56:06 PM): u always look at the NEGATIVE
imaginaryfriend (9:56:11 PM): seriously jen
imaginaryfriend (9:56:14 PM): if iam ur bf
imaginaryfriend (9:56:27 PM): hah! i will dump u
imaginaryfriend (9:56:30 PM): ><
imaginaryfriend (9:56:31 PM): no offense
imaginaryfriend (9:56:39 PM): i cant live with some1
imaginaryfriend(9:57:01 PM): who always see the bad side of sumthing all the time
imaginaryfriend (9:57:07 PM): give it a break!!
imaginaryfriend (9:57:30 PM): WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U COMPLEMENT HIM?
Jen-Jen (9:57:42 PM): um
Jen-Jen (9:57:44 PM): well
Jen-Jen (9:57:49 PM): when he dresses nice
Jen-Jen (9:57:51 PM): that's
Jen-Jen (9:57:53 PM): a compliment
imaginaryfriend (9:57:54 PM): WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U THINK HES BETTER THEN OTHER GUYS??
Jen-Jen (9:57:54 PM): -_-
Jen-Jen (9:58:00 PM): um..
Jen-Jen (9:58:02 PM): true..
imaginaryfriend (9:58:48 PM): eaxtly
imaginaryfriend (9:58:50 PM): man
imaginaryfriend (9:58:55 PM): if iam a guy
imaginaryfriend (9:59:00 PM): i wont date u
imaginaryfriend (9:59:00 PM): xD
imaginaryfriend (9:59:02 PM): cuz
imaginaryfriend (9:59:17 PM): u dont see the goodness in things
imaginaryfriend (9:59:27 PM): so pessimissticc
imaginaryfriend (9:59:29 PM): ><
imaginaryfriend (9:59:43 PM): wats with all the tears?
imaginaryfriend(10:00:06 PM): one word to describe u right now
imaginaryfriend (10:00:10 PM): INSECURE
Jen-Jen (10:00:53 PM): i am insecure
Jen-Jen (10:00:54 PM): o.o
Jen-Jen (10:00:56 PM): i know that
imaginaryfriend(10:01:02 PM): duh
imaginaryfriend (10:01:07 PM): see
imaginaryfriend (10:01:18 PM): if u dont change how u see things
imaginaryfriend (10:01:32 PM): u might get stuck like this for a while
Jen-Jen (10:01:46 PM): ..
imaginaryfriend (10:01:59 PM): k
imaginaryfriend (10:02:10 PM): i will pray 4 u
Jen-Jen (10:03:05 PM): o.o
Jen-Jen (10:03:09 PM): um thanks.