I was sitting there as other students asked him about the song and its vocab. When he asked me, I said a word that had been asked already. Apparently, I was thinking of what this one word meant, and he thought I wasn't paying attention.
Jokingly, he said,"Oh Jennifer is thinking about something else. She dressed all nice today. Something must be cookin'," and everyone laughed. I felt kind of embarrassed...ah he doesn't know anything...my face always looks like I'm somewhere else.
Remember the cousin I kind of dislike? Well, my theory was correct. She is now a very happy lady, being able to go shopping with friends and sings extremely well. She has the best mother in the world..
I was right. Due to the fact that she participated in so many church services, God granted her so much..things that not everyone can get.
I'm a prisoner in my own home with a family whom I cannot work with. If only my mother divorced my father...maybe things can improve by at least one percent.
Then again, who am I to say that I deserve all this luck? I am not a good person. I only particpated in two church services and only first started in seventh grade. She started when she was about six.
I tried to practice my singing, yet I get nowhere. My singing's a joke.
I can't even afford to get piano lessons and singing lessons.
No matter how hard I try, I will never reach my success. If I really deserved to be happy, God will give all those naturally.
One day, I know for a fact that she'll find a great guy. The worst thing is....she might end up with my dream guy -_- Well, if that's how Jesus wants to punish me..I guess..
I am not lucky. Good things just don't come natural.
God has given her true happiness and someday, a true love...a fairytale love....abstract things that I will never have.
My life has really been wasted. Where do I go from here...
aw how cute. a relationshiap this good is one in a million...but i'm pretty sure i'll never get it. it's late after all..a perfect relationship starts perfectly and continues perfectly...no chances..eh..wonder if my cousin will get this
~jen-jen
