♥ Daily Blog: Look Back

Laughs. Smiles. Jokes.

Someone has finally take advantage of my feelings. A visage. He had put on a visage and now cannot hold onto it. That explains why he's different every now and then.
To cry...how hard it is for me..to let go..i cannot let go...but i let go of the relationship.
To be cheated in a way, to be deceived, and to be hurt.
I will regret either way.
I cannot go on...I just can't tolerate that.
In my mind...there will always be a relatoinship with him...with the person i once knew..the person i thought he could be..the person i fell for.
i'm leaving it as it is. technically it's over..but...he's my last. i'm done.

cry.
cry to the point where i'll vomit, to the point where i cannot breathe...to the point where all i want to do is suicide.
Something like this...I never expected that I'll ever date someone who would do that.
I don't want to, but I have to.
I don't want to, but I need to.

I will never love again.

I"m done.

Need: piano usb, singing lesson cd and music theory cd and piano lesson cd, acoustic guitar, guitar lessons

I need motivation for writing. Must find time...

No more guys. No more love. Just hobbies..

time will heal..he'll get over it...i know he will..if he really loves me, he won't. but i think he will. he may say all this now...but when he does move on, he'll just admit it and yeah.

All were lies....i need a new "thing" for my "middle" part. I need...another jewelry..

I will...cut my hair.

In Japan, girls cut their hair after a relationship to leave everything behind. It's a symbol of moving on.

I know i won't ever move on...but..i will keep myself busy.

I'll always remember the person I once knew...