♥ Daily Blog: At This Time

No more kisses
No more of the usual stuff from before

I actually like his behavior today, just very attractive to me.
I don't know. I like his playful side...but this side of him today is wow.
If only he knows how to combine both.
If only he's only playful to me and can be this mature to others.
At the same time, he should put his serious side in check.
It would be better if he can be both like himself today and a bit playful.
But only to me, because I'm that selfish.
If I were still a hopeless romantic, I would wish that he can be romantic with the combined personality.

But..it was just today.
And..there's no more of those usual things.
And..he's not that romantic.
And I would cry right now if I were still dreamy.

I'm letting go...it hurts like madness...but I must let go...and I'm still crying inside...but I must let go.

I wonder...what it would be like...if all my dreams finally are erased...will I still smile from time to time...

does it matter?
eh

~jen-jen