♥ Daily Blog: A Pity?

"I pity you."

I don't understand. Everytime I see those words, I feel as if someone has hit me on the head.

I don't know. Why do I feel as if I can't trust his words 100 percent? Oh sure, my feelings are just feelings. However, this is how I feel, and I admit, I find myself hesitating on deciding whether to believe or not.

And I hate myself for feeling like this. I don't believe what others tell me about him, but I do take those words into consideration.

As much as I hate to believe, lies were told.

If I lied, nothing will ever be the same again. But if he lied, I let the lies slide.

No. I hate lies, and I can't tolerate them. Another lie and I will start closing off myself again. I simply can't trust anyone...I wish I can...I wish I can fully trust someone and his/her words.

Pain overflows inside me whenever one person says something that transposes into music to my ears...only to find the next day that words were lies.

One may be forgetful...but if something being said or being heard carries significance, one won't forget.

Because trying to forget what your special person has said is like trying to remember something that has never been said.

And the stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt me the most, won't hurt me again.

Rate for today will be up later.

~jen-jen